Results

Results.Are.In.

We're pregnant!

I waited anxiously all day Monday for the results. Rockhill hadn't called by 1pm, so I called and they finally called me back around 2:30. My progesterone was fine at 16, and my HCG was at 61 which indicated an EARLY EARLY PREGNANCY! Woo hoo! The nurse who called me back wasn't the nicest, and I ended up scheduling to go in for more bloodworm yesterday (Monday) to confirm that everything was rising as it should.

They called back today and we're good to go! My hcg number was 560 something! Praise Jesus!

Now we wait until our 10 week appointment on August 28th.

Now We Wait

Friday, July 14th I had blood work at Rockhill Women's Clinic to confirm the pregnancy and HCG levels. We won't find anything out until Monday the 17th. No we wait!

I also had them add on a progesterone level check to see how my levels were progressing. I can request to be retested on Monday and Wednesday next week to make sure levels are increasing like they should.

PRAYING!

Pregnant

July 13th I received my first POSITIVE pregnancy test in over 18 months of trying to conceive a baby.

To say I'm still in shock would be a complete understatement. We have had 3 failed IUI's, and 3 subsequent IVF consultations with doctors around the Kansas City area. After all the infertility treatments, and all the stress of trying month after month, we got pregnant ON OUR OWN. I've read stories of this happening for people, but I never dreamed it would be us. I was firmly on the IVF train and thought that was surely going to be our path to parenthood. God had other, better, miraculous plans for us.

I feel like I need to pause and explain how utterly terrified I am right now. Not terrified of pregnancy, or of becoming a mom, but miscarriage. I woke up at midnight the night of our positive test and couldn't go back to bed until nearly 3am. Of course, that could also have been jet lag, but I was having terrible thoughts that I would wake up and get my period the next morning. I still can't believe God made this miracle happen. I finally allowed myself to look through the Pinterest Board called "Future Baby H" that I created over a year ago and it calmed me down enough to go back to sleep.

Back to that morning! Thursday, July 13th I woke up around 9:45am. I had gotten home from Singapore the night before and was pretty exhausted. I went downstairs to let Charlie out, eat breakfast, and get the morning started. I believe I called Linda to catch up and exchanged a text with my mom - she told me she was heading to play golf. I went back upstairs and for some reason decided to take one of the cheap strip pregnancy tests. I peed in a cup, took the test, and then leftist on the counter. I went on with my morning and started the laundry and read some blogs and might have forgotten about the test - I was sure it would be negative anyway. I walked into the bathroom sometime later to check (my heart races EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. no matter if I think it's going to be positive or negative, and there it was...the elusive second pink line. My heart raced even faster, and I immediately called Courtney (Kyle was still in Singapore and it was 11pm his time). I asked her if the tests were trustworthy and cried/laughed/sobbed/FREAKED OUT. She calmly advised me to get another test, but agreed with me that there was definitely a second line there!

I then decided it was time to FaceTime and wake up Kyle. He was SHOCKED, and I don't think he believed me. I threw on shorts and a t-shirt and ran to Walgreens. (Funny side story, I always bring Charlie with me to Walgreens, but I decided it was too hot outside so I drove him around the block and put him back inside before leaving again!). I purchased the next test and chugged some water. I had Kyle on FaceTime the entire time. He made me leave the room and I basically wore a line in the carpet from the path I made while pacing! I walked back in and saw the word PREGNANT on the screen. You can probably visualize the next moment as I jumped up and down screaming and crying. Kyle was also emotional and super excited. All this time I'd been back and forth on the phone between Courtney, Kyle, and Becca. Kyle and I decided I would call RRC and see what the advised us to do. I couldn't get anyone there, so I ended up calling my OBGYN's office. They said I could come in for a blood test that day, or wait until Friday morning. I scheduled it for Friday morning so that I could see what RRC said to do. Spoiler Alert: I never heard back from RRC.

About an hour later my mom finally called me back. I had called her 4 times and texted her "Emergency - CALL ME" so I'm sure she was absolutely panicked! Getting to tell her the news was amazing. I know how badly she wanted to be a Grandma, and we both cried over the phone in excitement.

Over the course of the morning, I also called Linda to tell her, and my dad, Greg. I had to tell Amanda I wouldn't be at the gym that night, so she also found out sooner than I planned to tell anyone. Who am I kidding? I still want to shout this from the rooftop!


It was an awesome morning, and one that I am so thankful for. Our first positive pregnancy test. I don't think I'll ever forget it.

Starting tummy picture. (Still a little bloated from 2 weeks of vacation eating)

Infertility?

Here we are, ten (+) months after stopping birth control, but I'm still not pregnant.

I never imagined we would be in this place. It SUCKS. I'm actually finding myself in a hopeful place right now. HOPE is the word that goes hand in hand with infertility. Along with despair, sadness, defeat...you get the picture.

Tuesday, January 3rd, I had a doctors appointment with a new doctor at Rockhill Women's Clinic in Lee's Summit. I've been looking forward to this appointment for a few months now. December was tough. Really tough. So this appointment was a glimmer of hope. I am excited to finally be getting some answers!

I went by myself after work and was surprisingly calm on the drive down. I couldn't find a parking spot to save my life, and I wasn't even sure where I was going. I ended up parking on the opposite end of the hospital and walking all the way across. I arrived about 30 minutes early and then proceeded to wait another 40 minutes to be called back. Doctors offices are.the.worst.

I think the doctor was in the room for all of five minutes. I was pretty shocked that she barely asked me any questions and just started rambling off the plan. Now that I think about it, I'm relieved that she is so proactive and that I didn't have to prove my point that something isn't right, but at the same time, she didn't take any time to get to know my situation. The whole thing felt SO rushed. It didn't help that she talked faster than Pastor Adam. I'm still sorting through everything she said.

Here's the plan:

• blood work at the office 1/3/16
• semen analysis asap
• ultrasound 1/26
• more blood work 1/26

Yep. I HAD BLOOD WORK ALL BY MYSELF AND I DIDN'T DIE! I'm pretty proud of that. Luckily, the tech was great and it really wasn't too bad. She took 6 viles of blood!!!!!

We are basically in a holding pattern until the end of the month. I'm waiting for my period to start as I type. I hate this not knowing wait. Kyle will be in Oslo at the end of the month, which means more blood work by myself. Ugh

We'll see what the next few months hold! 

Leap Year Letter to Myself

Dear Future Me,

Today is Monday, February 29th, 2016. I am 26 years old and a Teacher at EPiC Elementary in Liberty, MO. Kyle and I have been married 2.5 years, we have lived in our house in Lee's Summit for a little over 3 years. Charlie just turned 4 this past Fall. We've had a great year traveling the country (me) and the world (Kyle!). We enjoy playing golf, trying new (and old favorite) places to eat, going to the lake, walking Charlie, traveling to new cities, and spending time together. We attend Church of the Resurrection weekly, but don't do anything beyond just Sunday's. I hope that changes when we have kids!

Other notable happenings in 2016 so far: My Grandma Dorothy is getting ready to leave this Earth for Heaven. It's a sad time, but I've also watched her fight cancer for 4 years. It's time for her to go be with Jesus. In joyous news, Stacey and Alex are about to give us our first "Haberberger" Niece or Nephew in September!

In four years, I hope to be...a mom. More than anything, I hope to be a mom. I would like to think we will have at least one child, and possibly two. I'll be 30 turning 31 in just a few weeks. I also hope to be teaching closer to home! I just hope I'm content in whatever I happen to be doing. I don't know what that might be! I hope that we will continue to travel! I'd love to take our kids to the beach each year, and for Kyle and I to go to Europe for our 5 year anniversary. Hawaii is definitely on my list of places to visit as well. I love our house, but I wouldn't be surprised if we have moved in 4 years. I could see us staying in Lee's Summit, or moving to OverlandPark/Leawood. Whatever we do, I just hope we still feel at home. I reallllllly hope I'm not driving a mini-van in 4 years! I want to keep my hair long and not cut it just because I'm a mom.

Happy Leap Day!

A Year in Review

2015 was a pretty darn amazing year. Kyle and I took many adventures and spent time with the people we love! You can't beat that!

We also made some major furniture purchases and finished decorating our house (it only took 3 years!).

Our Year in Pictures...

January

We welcomed baby Chase Thomas Klepper into the world on December 23rd, 2014. Kyle and I were able to visit the following week. We love this little man. Congratulations, Courtney and Michael.

"My girls" (aka the 2013-2014 Third Graders) got together for a little reunion at the Davis' house. These girls are precious to me. 

February

Kyle and I took our annual trip to the Lake for Valentine's / President's Day Weekend. We ate at Flat Branch, grabbed chocolate covered strawberries from the Chocolate Factory, and made a stop at Sophie's school party on our way through Columbia. We had Lil' Rizzo's and shopped the weekend away!

March

Over Spring Break, I took a 5 day trip to Scottsdale to visit Becca and Matt. Matt is a pitcher for the Diamondbacks and we enjoyed several Spring Training games, bazookies, hikes, walks, and breakfast at The Egg I Am!

We celebrated Megan's Bachelorette Party in Tarkio, Mo! This was SUCH a fun weekend! We had drivers that took us from house to house on a "Progressive Dinner/Shot Party." Definitely one of my favorite Girl's Weekends!! 

April

We celebrated Easter in St. Louis. If I remember correctly, dinner at Pietro's was involved.

Celebrating Megan & Tyson's Wedding in Tarkio, Mo #makemeamiller #willyoumillerme

Kyle was a Groomsman!

May

We enjoyed Memorial Weekend at the Lake with the O'Connells' and Holthouses' 

So.Much.Fun.

#tattoosandcorn

Charlie survived jumping/falling from our second story bedroom window. Luckily, he walked away without a scratch!Crazy puppy!

We took a trip to St. Louis to celebrate Uta and Connor's Wedding with a party at my parent's house. We also watched the Kentucky Derby!

June

 Kyle returned home from a month in China starting a gas plant. He learned a lot, but we were SO excited to have him home! In the meantime I attended 2 weddings solo, Abby & Adam's and Daniele and Benny's.

Adam and Abby came to the Lake with us! We are so glad they moved to Lee's Summit!

Jeni and I wrapper up our first year at EPiC with 50 4th Graders! It was quite a year. I learned a lot about myself and teaching, but I wasn't sad to see it end. We worked SO hard.

July - #vacationMONTH

We kicked off 2+ weeks of vacation in Marco Island at Eagle's Nest with my mom, dad, and Kelsey.

Dinner at the Gieger's house!

We spent 2 fun-filled days in Charleston just the two of us. We had so much fun exploring the city together! I would move there in a heartbeat!

We capped off vacation with a week in Hilton Head with Kyle's family.

August

We took our 4th Girl's Weekend to the Lake! We lost a few to pregnancy, and added some new friends. I love these girls and I'm so thankful to have an amazing support system. 

EPiC year 2 began with Jeni and I's first Student Teacher, Ryoko Barney. 

Back to School isn't complete without my kids! Love me some Hailey and Hayden!

Kyle and I drove to St. Louis to celebrate the wedding of Nick and Taylor. It was GORGEOUS and we had a blast with old High School friends!

September

We enjoyed our 5th year as Mizzou Football Season Ticket Holders.

We travelled to ITALY! This was an absolute DREAM TRIP! we were able to experience Florence and Rome!

Relaxing on the Vatican Steps

Relaxing on the Spanish Steps (we didn't actually have a lot of time to relax on this trip...TONS of walking!)

Watching the sunset from San Mineato.

October

We finished decorating our BEAUTIFUL dining room complete with the Farmhouse Table Kyle and Kevin built.

The Royal's won the World's Series (and we took a Field Trip to the Zoo).

Wearing Moose Ears :)

More football games! Kyle was in India or Singapore during a few games this season so I got to bring my dad!

My parents and grandma came to KC over Halloween while Kyle travelled for work.

November

Anheuser-Busch Brewery Lights Tour with the Habs and Mitchell's!

Thanksgiving with 3 sides of the family!

Becca came to KC and we went to the MU Basketball Game!

December

We said "see you later" to Miss Barney.

I had my sweet girls over for an Owl Ornament Exchange!

We celebrated the Birth of Jesus in St. Louis with Family!

I'm excited to see what 2016 holds!

Thanksgiving Recap

We had a marathon Thanksgiving Break! I need a break from this break if you know what I mean!

We drove back Tuesday night and Charlie rode on Kelsey's lap 

Wednesday I went for a long walk with my dad and Charlie. I love getting to talk and catch up with my him! I went to the Valley to grab a few gifts from the outlets and most stores had the same deals as Black Friday already. Of course I had to show my mom all the great stuff I got and then we headed to pick Kels up from the airport.

Someone LOVES his Aunt Kelsey

The Thanksgiving Marathon begins:
We started at my dad's house and somehow convinced them to let us eat some Mac n Cheese since they wouldn't be eating until 4pm. Annnnddd we took some goofy pictures of my dad in his Turkey hat. Classy family

After TGives Numero Uno we headed out to Wash -MO to meet the Habs side. We spent an hour getting there, an hour hanging out, and an hour getting back. So basically a lot of time in the car. I made Klye get a plate of his Aunt's cooking and we headed out while he ate in the car.

On to TGives #3 at The Mitchell's. We made it in time to eat, but everyone else had already started. I can't believe we went three places and only managed to eat at one of them! 

Baby Bear

Turkey coma snuggles

HAPPY THANKSGIVING